In a Slump and Stuff
Jun. 16th, 2011 11:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
submergedmemoryFeel free to ignore self-indulgent whining!
- My job ends next week, and I (still) haven't been able to find a new one. Great.
- No bites on the internships, either. I can't even find work as a gofer. When nobody's even hiring you as the office bitch, you've officially reached a new low.
- My sister's not helping on that front. The less said, the more my blood pressure stays normal.
- I feel blocked, art-wise. Not that I'm out of things to draw. It's just that lately, I feel that everything I put down on paper has just been... disappointing. I'm usually pretty down on my art on a good day, but these feelings have intensified these past few weeks. Still, I feel that I shouldn't stop. The last time I felt like this, I didn't pick up pen and paper for nearly a year. I really do not want to repeat that experience.
What's a girl to do when she's feeling down? ...Spend money she doesn't have, of course! 'Cause that's the smart thing to do.
- Finally made the plunge and bought my first loli piece: an off-brand jumper skirt at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
egl_comm_sales. It was a lot compared to what I usually spend on dresses, but for a loli piece, it was a fucking steal. It arrived in the mail yesterday, and it looks even better in person. It's very pretty and not too ruffly and lacy.
- A petticoat for the above-mentioned JSK, at Trash and Vaudeville. Very... fluffy. Fluffy is good.
- These shoes. Because when I'm not trying to be super girly, I'm trying to find ways to cross dress. People tend to think I'm kidding when I say this. I'm not.
And finally, some nice stuff:
- When my sister isn't nagging (which she only does because she cares, something I have to remind myself when I'm feeling particularly cantankerous), she's really awesome. She's taking me to Harry Potter world in July for my birthday. Awesome.
- Going to visit my friend in Albany this weekend. I'm sorry to say that Albany is really, really boring, but visiting friends always mitigates the negative parts of a visit. It looks nicer than the city, at least.
TL;DR:
So I'm still applying for jobs and internships, but I will be going somewhere for a week, so at least I'm doing something, this whole new loli fashion thing looks like it's coming to a good start, and I still have these ideas in my head, even though I'm a little stumped, drawing-wise. My scanner is out of commission for the time being, so if I do post anything, it will be stuff done with my tablet. Hopefully, things will go well.
- My job ends next week, and I (still) haven't been able to find a new one. Great.
- No bites on the internships, either. I can't even find work as a gofer. When nobody's even hiring you as the office bitch, you've officially reached a new low.
- My sister's not helping on that front. The less said, the more my blood pressure stays normal.
- I feel blocked, art-wise. Not that I'm out of things to draw. It's just that lately, I feel that everything I put down on paper has just been... disappointing. I'm usually pretty down on my art on a good day, but these feelings have intensified these past few weeks. Still, I feel that I shouldn't stop. The last time I felt like this, I didn't pick up pen and paper for nearly a year. I really do not want to repeat that experience.
What's a girl to do when she's feeling down? ...Spend money she doesn't have, of course! 'Cause that's the smart thing to do.
- Finally made the plunge and bought my first loli piece: an off-brand jumper skirt at
egl_comm_sales. It was a lot compared to what I usually spend on dresses, but for a loli piece, it was a fucking steal. It arrived in the mail yesterday, and it looks even better in person. It's very pretty and not too ruffly and lacy.- A petticoat for the above-mentioned JSK, at Trash and Vaudeville. Very... fluffy. Fluffy is good.
- These shoes. Because when I'm not trying to be super girly, I'm trying to find ways to cross dress. People tend to think I'm kidding when I say this. I'm not.
And finally, some nice stuff:
- When my sister isn't nagging (which she only does because she cares, something I have to remind myself when I'm feeling particularly cantankerous), she's really awesome. She's taking me to Harry Potter world in July for my birthday. Awesome.
- Going to visit my friend in Albany this weekend. I'm sorry to say that Albany is really, really boring, but visiting friends always mitigates the negative parts of a visit. It looks nicer than the city, at least.
TL;DR:
So I'm still applying for jobs and internships, but I will be going somewhere for a week, so at least I'm doing something, this whole new loli fashion thing looks like it's coming to a good start, and I still have these ideas in my head, even though I'm a little stumped, drawing-wise. My scanner is out of commission for the time being, so if I do post anything, it will be stuff done with my tablet. Hopefully, things will go well.
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OOH!!! IDEA!!!
Date: 2011-06-19 03:04 am (UTC)Re: OOH!!! IDEA!!!
Date: 2011-06-20 05:23 am (UTC)Excuse the unfinished-ness. This was done during a bus-trip from Hell (or rather, a non-bus trip from hell-- four hours of being stuck at an Albany bus station because of a broken fanbelt. Last time I ever take Mega Bus), and Perry, as usual, was giving me trouble. Also Harmony, but she's mostly completed. Harry would have been included, but I couldn't decide if I wanted him in Ouji style, Aristocrat (which is what Perry is supposed to be in if I had finished) or in drag-- OTT sweet lolita, even, poor Harry.
And then I started making up this convoluted plot with murder and sex and blackmail and under-cover detective work and how Lolita is a really bad way of covering up a drug ring because Lolita is in no way, shape or form discreet and that is when I decided that I needed some air before I really lost my marbles.
Re: OOH!!! IDEA!!!
Date: 2011-06-21 08:08 am (UTC)*scrolls up to look at the loli* I FEEL BETTER NOW. AND WHEN I SUGGESTED LOLI-HARRY, I WAS TOTALLY TALKING DRAG LOLI. 8) doooo eeet! just for me? write you fic for drag-loli-harry? write you your convuluted murder/sex/blackmail plot? (srsly I'm intirgued and want to write that shit) SWEET!LOLI!DRAG!HARRY??? PRETTY PLZ WITH THE OT3 ON TOP????